After my last post in English I got slagged over that (oh big time!) because my mum couldn’t read it..hmm..I hope she will forgive me now…giving the fact that I am leaving Ireland and coming back home;) literally..I’m typing this in the aeroplane…and by coming back as you know now I don’t mean a little holiday…but getting back back…for good as they say…A new chapter in my life just begun this morning when I woke up (pretty early) and tried to push rest of my life into two apparently small bags…so I pushed harder ;)) even though, some allowances had to be made so my lovely Janka got the nice task ship rest of my possession (however pathetic but still mine) back to Slovakia…god love her!..so after a very early visit at hers (when I also left a good bit for her, she doesn’t need to worry about tea and alcohol stock for a while ;)) I rushed (well, depending on the bloody traffic around Dundrum at the morning hour) to the car park where I met the new owner of my little yella fella…be good, you served me well..I had a good time with you…:) and then again, walking through the malls, breathing the retail air as my boss would say, I went home to wrap it up there, clean up a bit so they don’t get a bad impression about Slovaks, leaving the keys in the letterbox, as in a movie…and with tears on the edge, I went for my very last time to the office…well, not for the very last time, I will be back…just this time last time…everything was as it is always…busy, pulsing, breathing, living…I just popped in for a quick 15 minutes.. I couldn’t bear more…the tears were too close…last thoughts, last hugs and kisses, last goodbyes and see you soons….I am so going to miss that place…it meant a lot me, an awful lot…and it still means…you see, tears again…
But there is the time in everybody’s life when you need to move on..move…always on the move…I don’t mind giving it’s forward…so I have to embrace my sadness of leaving one life behind and look up to the new one..even though now I feel insecure but that just because it’s a new beginning… in an old place but still new…I don’t know what’s around the corner so there’s no point in getting depressed (yeah, read this in a month) or worried or anything else…just live..yeah, easy to say… but sure, who said it’s going to be an easy one, right? Getting back to be Slovak in Slovakia…it might seem simple enough but somehow I got further to this over the last couple of years…and I’m curious how I will settle back...and maybe this is only my mind wondering because has nothing else to do right now…maybe everything will be grand, sure why not, we’ll see…we always will see…the future when it comes to us… and in my little case that one starts in about 2 hours when this Boeing 737-800 lands…
For the last couple of weeks I’m getting these sixth sense feelings (type: I’ll see you again, our paths will cross again- I might just get mad alright!) but they are usually true…and I have a feeling that even though this blog was started to get me and you with me through my life in Ireland, it won’t finish now…it will serve the purpose of getting things off my chest…and sure that’s handy anytime…
And it doesn’t matter if it’s in English, Spanish, Slovak, it’s here for me to write loud what’s bothering me, what’s keeping me happy, laughing or crying…and if only one person reads it, that’s more than enough…
So…I guess I get back to sleep now, because with all my un-organised planning and packing and stuff around I have absolutely no bloody clue where my headphones are so I can’t watch anything in here..:(
[Mumford&Sons]…where you invest your love, you invest your life…I lived in Ireland…now it’s time to love more…goodbye Dublin…hello Slovakia….